Golf Pitchaya Nithipaisankul and Mike Pirat Nithipaisankul teamed up to clear their minds completely on the WOODY FM program. Mike told the story with tears in his eyes. Revealing the reason for flying to work in China Because of being looked down upon and disrespected by people in the industry Feeling of no place in society Until the passion is gone, life is not happy. I want to overcome these feelings. and reveal feelings between siblings who have never spoken to each other
I’m so happy that two people came together to sit together. Both of them have come a long way. What have you guys really been through in your lives? Sometimes you fall, sometimes you get up, it’s the color of life, in the end it passes. It was a teaching experience for us and Mike to go to live in China. What is the reason for the decision?
Mike: Seriously, at that time it was famous from Full House and there were many people following and wondering if it was going to China or not. Whether you want to go abroad or not, I haven’t gone yet. And then there were various news stories. It was a long time ago. That is, after that news, many It’s like it’s changed. When we go out, the eyes of people looking at us That is, because I am normally a person who is suspicious of people’s eyes. This one is even more multiplying. I feel the eyes of people looking at me. It’s contempt, contempt. When I went to the mall or something like that, after a while I stopped walking, or even people in the industry. I feel that way.
I feel like when I go to a friend’s birthday party or any other event, There are many people in the industry. Their eyes when they look at me I mean, they might not think like that. But my concern is that he already thinks that he is disgusted with us. He was looking at us with disdain in his eyes. I went to one event and I could feel that there were a lot of people surrounding us. But no one came to talk to me. Everyone just walked up and said hello and left. It’s like I’m standing in the middle of the circle and I don’t know what I’m doing here.
At that time I felt that we had no place to stand here. No one wants to get close to us. And he carried this feeling for a year. We couldn’t take it anymore when one day someone told us we were going to China. That day I decided to go for it. Because if I continue to stay here, I will definitely die. I won’t survive. I won’t be able to take it anymore. When I went to China, I felt that no one cared about what happened in Thailand. And he was willing to welcome us with open arms without prejudice, without walls, and I felt very happy. I feel like the work will be more difficult. You have to sit and recite the script. Must practice Chinese It’s many times more tiring, but it’s happier. It’s more than being here and feeling like everyone looks down on us.
I want to tell you that it’s not true. There isn’t a whole industry of people disrespecting you. But it’s true that during the time it was in the news, there were a lot of people talking about it. But everyone is waiting to see what Mike will do next. And at that time, I was very worried?
Mike: It’s lonely. It’s really all alone. If you were to think back on your feelings back then, why would you continue? I don’t know which way to go (with tears in my eyes). Everywhere I go, I’m stuck.
What was the darkest day like?
Mike: Can you say that it’s so much pressure? I was already outside on the balcony (with tears in my eyes). It felt like there was no way out.
Does Golf know this?
Golf: I know.
So glad you’re sitting here. Today we just reflect back. It has passed I’m sorry to mention it, but I think it might be useful to many people. Who encountered a dead end and couldn’t find a way out?
Mike: It’s that we are born as men. You’re a man, you can’t be weak. You have to be strong to cry. But I just want to say that people who are not in the same situation as us. He could never understand the things we had to face. That is, what everyone sees in the media is just a fraction of what I encountered. As far as the media can tell There’s still so much beneath the surface that we can’t say. That day I tried to act strong, but at present I will say that when we start to realize it, On that day, we were not weak at all. We are even the strongest, but just the things we encounter may be so strange that we seem like weak people. Or maybe it’s a chemical illness or something and it’s really sad. Until it’s uncontrollable
Golf: It’s because Mike is a person who doesn’t talk much. Don’t tell me what you feel. We are people who keep to ourselves. Both of us have been in this industry since we were children. We will encounter this kind of news. For example, Golf himself will find news about his girlfriend. Sometimes we feel like we have to meet like this. You have to come out and speak about things like this and make society understand. In that era, it may not be like in this era where there may be many different viewpoints. But at that time there might only be one perspective. Wherever the message goes, the superficial reader will interpret it that way. Many people will think that way. Makes us feel like it’s not fair. There’s something that wants you to understand that we’re not like that. For example, golf also has periods of downtime in its life. who disappeared for a period after the separation of Golf Mike But luckily, golf and Mike are a little different. Golf will be alert, fun, hilarious, and use the positive energy there to do what we want to dream of so that we can come out of that point because we believe that if we have skills, we will not disappear from our entertainment industry. Will be able to live with our potential
Mike: I’m jealous of him. Try and try to be like he is But it’s not itself.
Each person is different?
Mike: Because I tried and it was tiring. Some people meet me and feel like I’m hard to find. But it’s really not, I’m just tired of showing emotions, feelings, or facial expressions. What kind of appearance is indifferent? I mean, I can act like I can Alert. But I am like this and still, but it’s nice. But when people meet me, why are they so quiet? He will have a bad impression. Does it look annoying? (laughs) But really, it’s not. Tell everyone first that it’s not. I didn’t pick up anything either. It’s just tiring to show emotion all the time. No matter what we try to say We think that if it were us Someone doing this will make us very happy. But when we make it happen to other people, they say why are they selfish? Think about yourself. That is, we think everything is logical. If you do this you will get results like this. Doing it this way is good like this. Why? There will always be a reason. But sometimes when I say something and he doesn’t accept it or doesn’t listen to me, I just stop. And then it continues like this It’s like a repeated lesson. In the end, we chose not to talk to anyone. Because there is an expectation that if we talk to this person, he won’t understand. I became more and more an introvert until I didn’t want to open up too much.
That day Mike decided to end his life. What consciousness did you have that came to warn you? To benefit many people, how has Golf supported him?
Mike: To be honest, at that time, my legs were already half a step away. I walked back in and went to find a seat in the parking lot. I sat there for a long time but didn’t think anything of it. It was blurry. Every time it was like this. Sometimes it’s a little heavy and there will be hyperventilation, hands tense, face numb, tongue numb, but once it gets through I feel like turning 30 is a turning point. I don’t know why it changed: age, stars, astrology, or whatever. I immediately felt that my mind was stronger. It got stronger until Okay, if we go back and talk about it, there is still sadness. Those feelings haven’t disappeared at all. But we chose not to go against it. I just changed my mindset a little about how we would live together. How do we get along? How can our feelings and ourselves coexist in this world? So I added one word: don’t care too much. Whatever will happen, let it happen and it will pass. It will pass, nothing bigger than this will happen if we pass close to the death line. Every matter is a small matter. As long as we are alive, we can always start over. Another thing: if we no longer leave this world, what next? We are only the last memories, it’s painful all alone, it’s meaningless. So I decided to keep going and crashed into everything. At that time, I went to China and crashed into everything.
How supportive were you for him at that time?
Golf: He hasn’t really talked about his feelings here. Golf later heard that this had happened, but later tried to ask him. But like Mike, he’s not very open, he rarely talks about his feelings.
Mike: My parents didn’t talk. That is, there are too many stories. And we don’t know how to compose it. But I know as a whole in my head that this is what we are dealing with. I thought that if I talked about these feelings it wouldn’t be beneficial, so I didn’t say them. Ultimately, we have to solve this problem ourselves. No one can help you but yourself. I used to question myself whether what we encountered was good or bad. After that, I always got answers to everything that happened. Whether it’s bad or good And you will know in the future.
Now I’m looking This year is a time to figure out what I can do to get out of these feelings. To this day, I still can’t find it. I still don’t know the answer. I tried to do it in the past and I was happy, but now I’m not happy. Even eating food that was delicious before would not be delicious. The things I’ve done that have made me the happiest, I’ve done and felt indifferent about. Until you have to ask yourself how? But I keep doing it because I want to find out where I went wrong or if my happiness isn’t here anymore. So where did it go? What do we really want? like a lost person That’s one reason why this year I agreed to come back and do a golf mic concert. Actually, I was really scared. I’m terrified of coming back to work here. With stories from the past, even if they have already been cleared up Because it is still a drama in my heart. There’s no cure. So I took the golf mic concert as a point where I wanted to build my self-confidence back. Want to overcome these feelings I want to explode on this stage. Give me back happiness Have passion again
Are you happy to have this sibling?
Mike: Of course. I want to say that I’m embarrassed.
Golf: We don’t usually talk. They spoke very little. About feelings
Mike: Thank you very much for being here. And stay all the time Normally, we might not talk to each other or anything. But when we have a problem or something Golf has been around since the beginning.
Golf: Actually, I love you. (Crying) I want you to talk to me.
Mike: There’s nothing at this time. And then I couldn’t think of anything to say. I’m just saying that now I can take care of myself. Don’t worry. Now it’s strong.
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