Starting to get into nostalgia!! Poo Blackhead opens his heart that there is no second that he doesn’t miss Nooksi and reveals that he wrote a song for his loved ones, but it’s not over yet.
When Poo Blackhead became a special guest on the Club Friday Show, produced by CHANGE2018, he opened the entire story of life in the story of life. After losing his beloved girlfriend, Nuxie, he revealed that there is not a day that goes by that he doesn’t miss him. Ready to reveal that when Nooksi was still there, he asked to write a song for him. Which now I try to compose, but I still can’t finish it.
Back about 8 months ago, I came to be a guest here. To be honest, Nuksi looked really strong and had a really bright energy. How was her illness on that day?
Crab Blackhead : Well, at that time there was really hope. So it’s like it’s a little calm. Only after the period of chemo, he called the first drug chemo until it becomes resistant, it calms down for a while and it becomes stubborn. So now I have to switch back to the original chemo drug that he has for a long time. which he has breast cancer But the lump was taken away and the flesh was taken out. But now it goes to the lymph nodes too and it starts to spread. When it’s there, the lymph nodes will then go to the small lungs. So we have to give chemo to treat and control the cancer in those parts.
And there is one thing that is the final intention but doesn’t do anything.
Crab Blackhead : When I came out of the hospital the day before Nook left, I thought if Nook got a little better or if the pulmonary virus was okay. And when the covid is okay, it can bring the sheriff to register his marriage. because he said that if it cannot be held during this period Because I can’t see many people sick anymore. and don’t want to meet many people, just register
It is the dream of the younger brother who wants to get married.
Poo Blackhead: Yes, I want to get married. At first I wanted to have a big event, right? On the first day that I met, the day I came here, the day I came to talk about last time, I wanted to be a small event and have close friends. Until in the end, I thought it was the order that he had the same concerns. with him feeling himself that it might be a time like this So he asked that if so, would you like to register, do you want to register? It’s better to go and register, but at that time, go to the hospital first, so I thought that on the day I came out to work that day before the day of Nook. I will go for one day. I thought or did the sheriff ask for permission from the doctor?
Have you spoken to Nook in our intentions?
Crab Blackhead : We didn’t talk to him, but we thought we’d do it. It’s like something, I suddenly thought of it, registered it for him to be better than anything like this. Or that we are already worried about it, I don’t know.
This is what many people tend to say often that now they want to do something for each other, hurry up to do it because in the end we really don’t know what day it will happen to our lives. But even on that day, there may not be a marriage registration picture as Pu used to wish that there were only younger siblings. He has true love even without a marriage certificate. He saw a person who was with him, happy with him, painful instead of wanting to hurt him, believing that he had love that sustained him until his last breath.
Crab Blackhead : I thought he might know.
During our hardest times, of course. a songwriter, a singer At that time, he wrote a song from his agony as well.
Crab Blackhead : Yes, it feels like it’s the second week. He used to say that he wanted his personal song and wanted me to write it for you. So I thought that every morning I would open a picture and sit and look like this. Sit and look at old photos and sit and watch old clips, eh .. I remember that he wanted one of his songs so I wrote it. But when I wrote it, it didn’t end because it turned out to be a sad song. It’s so sad that he probably doesn’t want a song like this. his personal song Because we wrote after he passed away, so I was in that mode so I couldn’t finish writing.
How about the lyrics of the song, can you tell me?
Crab Blackhead : It also happens that .. have good love, always have each other, have luck to meet but have too little time I still ask myself every night and I still don’t understand leaving, not seeing the smile that can always change the world. In the morning, I don’t want to meet her, I don’t even want to open my eyes Still suffering every night and still don’t understand leaving, where are you?
I see that some songs can’t be sung at all.
Crab Blackhead : All along, when singing, I don’t feel much about it. It’s another matter. It’s about other people. But one day, I can’t sing just one sentence. The song lives without you, like this, but we can’t sing and it’s a song that people have to ask for all the time. Every time we go to play concerts, but we have to ask him back. Until this part, I can’t sing. Please sing for me. At present, each time I go to a concert, there will be people coming in like fighting, oppa, or always cheering me on. Some people carry the picture as a couple. It’s not a picture or a poster of Blackhead anymore. It’s a picture of me and Nook. I’m a weird culture right now.
Last time we talked about one thing about crabs, we said that we would like to have some private space. But today there is a lot of personal space.
Crab Blackhead : Too much is that when we’re together for 24 hours, wherever we go and do whatever we do together, it’s like our personal space at that time that I’m telling you is. Thinking about work or maybe I’ll listen to music? It must be listening to the song Listen to music to create your next work. So it takes its own morning time. Or, when summarizing a song and writing a song to finish it, it takes time in the morning. That one was the private space that we had in the morning. when he had But now it’s very empty. Lots of private spaces. But it’s in an area where there’s no idea.
Means that now it still can’t work.
Crab Blackhead : Well, writing is still difficult. Because it’s going to be happy, not happy. Going to suffer, it can’t be suffering because it is a big wound. It may be suffering that is drawn in private mode. So it’s still difficult to write.
When it was revealed that they were lovers for the first time, everyone would come in to be like, if they were to be said simply, there were people who insulted whether they would survive or not. Is your mental state enough today?
Crab Blackhead : It’s better to call it better. It’s better to say that it was through a period of suffering rather than through the shock and regret that had just passed. It’s starting to enter a period of nostalgia more.
What do you do when you miss a lot?
Crab Blackhead : Thinking about it, it can be called if assuming that when you are sad, there will be tears. Nostalgia can bring tears too, because the truth is happy, it’s happy. But those happy days are no longer there today. So it became something like when I thought about it, there was a part of suffering. But it’s a different story from the beginning. In the first moments there will always be a question in itself as to what actually happened. It will mourn. To the extent that we can see your face, oh .. Why do you have to be so unlucky? Why is it a mouse? Then why does it have to be someone like that? Why do you have to become a person who tries to fight and try to do something good for others? But why did he not get any rewards that he was in a situation where it was a little better?
From that day of loss until today, it’s about 3 months.
Crab Blackhead : Yes, for about 3 months we still look at his cell phone every day because it’s our daily routine, I’ll be on the right side, I have the phone on my right. He will be on the left side. The phone will be on the left side. There is a personal charger for each person. I will always charge his. There is no day that the phone is turned off at all. Both machines and wake up in the morning, I will Picked up his stuff and it turned out to be something like that. At first it started by looking at Is there any work left in there? After looking at it, when it’s finished, we go deeper and deeper, so it becomes something that we haven’t seen before. Most of them look at the pictures because when we start to see the photos, we start to see clips which contain a lot of our videos. During the time when we sleep, or is it the moment that we accidentally do something, then there will be his voice acting, that is, like us, he looks at us all the time and asks like he cares about us all the time. yes Some clips, some photos, we still can’t remember where this place is. What is that moment?
But I see that I feel that I have a little couple photos. Usually I don’t take photos together.
Crab Blackhead : At that time, I didn’t take any pictures of the couple because we were always together. It can be called 24 hours, so we don’t see that it has to take a lot of photos for it because we feel that why shoot when we can go together, so we don’t see the importance of We have to record it because we don’t know that. It’s going to happen in this situation.
It’s a different way of thinking and dealing with it. It’s even more reinforcing that we can’t move on or not, but with Poo, look at it in a different way.
Crab Blackhead : Yes, really, I really don’t want to forget. I don’t want to forget the event that it used to be happy. It can be called every piece of furniture or that or the belongings of Nook. something like this that is furniture non clothes As for clothes, I donated all of Nook’s clothes to Wat Suan Kaew. The wig went to donate to Chulabhorn. Because it’s not used anymore, I don’t use it. Then his mother came and took part of it. Something like this has already taken part. The other part was taken to Wat Suan Kaew. But the furniture left at home I still set the same because we don’t see the need for it to be removed. out of life
This would be another way of thinking because there are some people who may feel that they are trying to forget so they don’t have to be sad again or they don’t have to be sad again, but Pu feels that no, we have to remember. hold We must keep good memories.
Blackhead Crab : Yes, well, it’s not that I’m the opposite, just that I think so, it’s a pity. I regret the memories because the time we spent together might be less. It’s also very rare that we’ve been together for more than 5 years, that is, coincidentally that we’re not in a mode where we think about throwing away those feelings or throwing away those memories at first. Can we stay the same? If in case we have to go around, but it appears that today I think that the state of mind and being with the things that still linger on that still revolve around me.
You can watch the clip backwards on the CLUB FRIDAY SHOW program, produced by CHANGE2561 on YouTube.