“People were singing and taking pictures of meshe says in “Salam”. The music was loud, so loud. She stifled the cry of my soul which screamed for help. Everyone was dancing, singing, the room was full and yet, for me, everything was empty. I was empty but I was pretending. Pretend to be well. I was losing my mind more and more. I took more and more pills. I hurt myself more and more and then I thought about death more and more but I didn’t say anything, I kept pretending.”
Soothed and relieved today, the famous rapper, who left the world of music – because it did not suit her – a decade ago, spoke at Parisian. If she has always admitted to having earned crazy sums at the peak of her fame, Diam’s has also revealed what she now lives on. “From what I earned at the time. My mum who worked at a record label handled things well for me. I wasn’t needy”entrust to Parisian the one who also left France to live in the United Arab Emirates. Through her association, the rapper also provides for the needs of an orphanage in Mali and also organizes occasional missions in Niger, Morocco and Mayotte during Ramadan.
In an interview given to Augustin Trapenard for Brut, Diam’s confided in her suicidal desires at the end of her singing career. “I sometimes feel like I’m coming to talk about someone who should have been dead,” said Mélanie Georgiades, her real name. For her, the name Diam’s refers to “a woman who, if she had not found peace, would have died”. She considers herself to be “a miracle”. “That’s for sure, me normally, I’m dead, that’s for sure. That is to say that when I say that I wanted to end my life, it was serious what.” If Diam’s is not dead, it is thanks to her relatives. “I walked because my mother, she wanted me to walk, my mother, she didn’t want me to die, my friends didn’t want me to die. But I walked to go where? To do what?” So, the rapper then experienced “drug hell” in a psychiatric clinic. “At this point in my life, I tell myself that death is better than what I’m going through.”