I’m a young man and I’m quite introverted and soft-spoken. I’ve never had sex, but when I masturbate and ejaculate, I’m even more limp and tired than usual for 2/3 days and I don’t feel like doing anything (more motivated to work for my studies, even playing a video game requires a great effort in this state of mind, I don’t want to see people because it looks like I’m a zombie, I have negative thoughts etc.)
However when I abstain for at least 5 days and move on the side, I become a little energetic, much more creative, I write better, I speak better, I have more confidence, I am much more focused (less “elsewhere”, the impression of being more intelligent),funnier etc.
This worries me a lot for my future, I take an energizing tablet every morning (containing guarana, ginseng, vitamin C, vitamin B, zinc…) and every evening (because in addition I insomnia, at least one night out of 3) I take a tablet to sleep better (containing melatonin, vitamin B6, Valerian, Chamomile, lavender, not creating drowsiness on waking and without addiction).
I have the impression in addition to being very sensitive to external stimuli, for example if the weather is nice I would be more energetic and in a better mood, when the weather is gray, I am sleepy and I have less motivation than usually (same depending on the room where I am, bright and large room = better shape, colorless and small room = soft) At night if there is regular noise, I will not be able to sleep. The more people present during the day, the more people talking, the faster I am emotionally worn out…
Yet I don’t masturbate much, it varies from once to 3 times a week if you want to give a frequency. I don’t know how do those who masturbate 3/4 times a day to have energy…
I’m really scared for later, if one day I have a girlfriend, if I’m asleep for 3 days after sex, if seeing her friends for 2 hours exhausts me, she won’t stay with me long. .. In a world where we must constantly give the best of ourselves, convince, this anomaly can cost me some opportunities (sentimentally, professionally, friendly ..) if I have days with and days without…
Thank you very much if anyone can give me some leads and some answers, I’ve already thought about seeing a sex therapist but I don’t feel comfortable going to see one…