Life is impermanent, no one knows what tomorrow will bring. My husband and I used to love each other for 7 years before we got married, but following 3 years I became a widow. He passed away suddenly in an accident, when I had just given birth for more than a month. The day I heard the news, I was shocked and fainted. I never thought I would be so unhappy. Without my little daughter, I would not have been strong enough to live well.
When my husband died, my mother and I had to get used to a new life. I am both a mother and a father to my children. Hard work, self-pity, but for the sake of my children, for my brother, I have to try. My mother-in-law was afraid that I would hurry to remarry, so she told me to wait until he finished picking his grave. I also have no intention of going further, partly because I love my husband very much, partly because I love my children, and I want to take care of my mother instead of my husband. My mother and I still live with our grandmother, mother and daughter, and grandchildren rely on and help each other.
My daughter is growing up, which means that the old grandmother is getting weaker. Mother’s health is not good anymore, these days she keeps remembering and forgetting, she is constantly ill. Living with my mother, I take care of everything from taking care to the economy. Under my husband is still a younger brother. But he and his wife lived separately, nearly 10km from his grandfather’s house, so it was not convenient to take care of his mother. I don’t blame everyone because everyone has their own life.
I’m afraid of collisions, so for many years of being a bride, I have no problem with it, letting it all go. Because of that, I never argued with my mother-in-law or sister-in-law. When a girl gets married, she must treat her husband’s family as her own to live a long life together. My mother-in-law is sick, my children are still young, and I am the main laborer in the house, so I have been struggling for the past few years. Money is not much, but just squeeze to spend it reasonably.
Living with my mother-in-law, I consider her as my biological mother. I think my mother is too, because she loves me very much. But yesterday, when I cleaned my mother’s room, seeing this thing under the mattress, I was extremely shocked and disappointed. It’s a will that my mother wrote more than 2 years ago. She left all the house, land and authorizes to transfer the name to the couple’s second son. And my name is not on this paper.
Frustrated, I took it out and asked my mother directly. At first, the mother rejected it, but later she admitted to doing it before because she was afraid that she would be old and unable to do it, and the children would fight once more. My mother has not made this will public yet. Mom said, I’m just a daughter-in-law, my daughter is a girl who will get married sooner or later. She might not leave the land of her ancestors in the hands of outsiders. My husband has passed away, I have no guarantee that I will stay here for the rest of my life.
When my mother said that, I burst into tears. After living with my mother for many years, I did not remarry because I was worried regarding her, but I was still considered an outsider. My mother was afraid to leave a will for me, later if I marry someone else, all the land will be lost. I quietly left the room, lying all night thinking but might not understand. Even if my husband dies, my brother-in-law will take care of the incense, but can’t I get nothing following all these years of caring for my mother-in-law?
